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As we all may know from my previous blogs, I am a worrywart. I specialize in worry, scheduling, planning, etc. I stumble over the meticulous details that I think should be even more specific. I plan spontaneity.
Granted, I have gotten better, but it’s still a struggle for me. It will be. I am wired that way. I’m wired to need specificity. I’m not fond of not knowing what’s going to happen next. I have a “need” to know, but I can’t always know what’s coming, can I?
It is my belief that God puts me in situations where I could never guess what would happen next. And I believe it’s to help me get over this false necessity. God is teaching me not to worry over the details. He’s saying don’t worry about the job. Don’t worry about the relationship. Don’t worry about your finances. Trust. Trust where I have you at right now.
What God constantly reminds me is that I don’t get to be His child and worry. The two will never go hand in hand, because they were never meant to. I forfeited my right to worry when I accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior.
I’m a schedule freak. I plan spontaneity. It’s true. But, yet again God had to call me out on it.
God said, “Hey Chanel, I love you. I love you to death, literally. And because I love you so much, I don’t need your back up plan. There will never be a situation that gets so out of control that I need to call on you. Yes, I know I’ve wired you this way, but I also know why I’ve wired you this way. In the meantime, know that I got this.”
I’ve talked about God calling us out. Well, He calls me out a good bit. It’s not that I’m completely disobedient, but it is that I’m controlling. I’m controlling through schedules and planning. It’s strange that I’ve never made a plan for the big stuff, like being married by 30 or owning my own home by 29, etc. It’s the day-to-day things I have trouble letting go of.
God has to nudge me and say, “Chanel, you can’t schedule EVERYTHING! You can’t get in your prayer closet and time it out missy.”
And I can’t. I can’t control everything. I can’t worry over all the little details. I really do have to adhere to the saying, “Let go and let God.” Every now and then I have to not do so much and just do what God specifically says. And when I can’t hear Him, it helps if I would be quiet. I can’t hog our conversation all the time.
It’s good that God called me out. Because when He did I had to stop everything and turn it over to Him. That quickly, the burden I chose to carry was given over to a God that wanted to carry it for me! The fact of the matter is that God doesn’t need my help or control or plan. That’s the whole point in having faith in the one and only God that can’t fail. I don’t have to man the situation. I have no need to be afraid that His plan won’t work. It always does.
Mark 4:19-20 (CSB)
He got up, rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, “Silence! Be still!” the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. Then He said to them, “Why are you fearful? Do you still have no faith?”