So much is going on these days. Illnesses are everywhere. And in the midst of it all, I’m beginning to wonder, am I selfish? Am I selfish because I don’t want to think about things that are going on? Seriously, does what I choose to or not to think about make me selfish?
Is it wrong that I would rather think about my boyfriend? Am I heartless when I choose to focus on my problems more than everyone else’s? Does that make me cold? Am I wrong?
The truth is, I feel bad about it. I feel selfish when I think about myself. I feel petty when I focus on my life. And I’m not really sure why. I honestly don’t think it’s a big issue to focus on yourself sometimes. I think it’s OK to not want to think about ALL that’s going on around you ALL the time. But I do think that you shouldn’t ignore it either.
As I question myself, I am hit with one truth that brightens my whole day. Although I’m struggling, I’m thankful that God doesn’t need to be reminded of anything that’s going on.
Have you ever gotten so overwhelmed in your own thinking that God just has to give you something in the middle of it all? All that’s happening, God already knew would, and He knows how it will all play out. So when I’m struggling with my inability to know what to focus on, I’m reminded that for all of it God doesn’t need reminding.
I don’t have to say, “Dear God, maybe you forgot, but Aunt Betty is still sick…” Nope. He already knows. I get to tell Him that, but He doesn’t need to be reminded of it. And that’s pretty comforting.